Almost time...

  In two weeks from this exact moment, I will be tucking my beautiful children into bed and preparing for my trip to Connecticut to see Dr. Doyle. In two weeks from tonight, I will be setting out my children's Halloween treats ever so quietly, so I can surprise them when they awake. It saddens me that I will miss their Halloween festivities, but they understand what a gift we as a family are giving the Griffin's. I'll be a little nervous for the transfer. I'll be excited to meet Matthew, whom by now, I consider an amazing friend and an extension of my family. I will finish any packing I have left and I will be preparing to take a single trip that could not only change my life, but that of my intended fathers lives forever. 

  It is only the last few weeks that I have really started to realize what an enormous act of love this is. These children we hope to bring forth, have an amazing family. I have been so warmly welcomed into Matthew and Brett's circle of friends and family. I can only imagine how much love this child(ren) will have the luxury of knowing. I feel so honored and so proud to be a part of this. I know I have said this so many times, but I truly feel this way. 

  I am a little nervous that somehow the transfer will fail and that I will feel like I somehow failed my friends. I am confident that most, if not all, surrogates experience some sort of anxiety before their transfer. It is just that I want this to work so badly for my two favorite guys. Historically, I have always been a very optimistic person. I can truly and honestly state that despite a few nerves, I know we will be successful. After all, Dr. Doyle did say I had an Olympic perfect uterus and that I was very prolific! HaHaHa

  I hope the next time I post I am able to share the news of a positive pregnancy test with everyone. Until then, peaceful steps.....